Today

God, I am not like these girls. It makes me feel so weird sometimes. I don’t really like pink or candles or galentines day at all. My bedroom doesn’t look like Disney land with fluffy pink everything. It never has. My dad made me strong. My bedroom is dark blue, my bedding is maroon (my favorite color) a dove over a down blanket that I had since I was a kid, still have it even though I am not a kid anymore. I like records and rock and roll. I like books and music, music, music, I have piles of Rolling Stones magazines. Most of my belongings come from Bass Pro Shop since I go with my dad all of the time. He had a party and he got like a thousand dollars in gift cards to that store. I like Starbucks and Altrd State and kick boxing and dance movies. I am a firm believer in my diet is not just food it’s everything I put in my soul. I don’t watch TV shows high in violence or swearing. I don’t watch the news ever really, only in very small amounts to check the weather. I don’t eat out often and I don’t eat a lot of junk food. I have desert but in small amounts, sugar makes me sick. I love to cook. Most of the food I eat I make myself at home. I don’t do things that make me feel terrible often. I had a friend who was alone a lot and always watched scary movies and was always paranoid I said to her you do this to yourself - change your bad habits. you will have a totally different life. My mom is crazy paranoid. She watches the news too much lets that toxic garbage rot her brain