Alien Life Form

the wedding: I danced with you but didn't want to and did what I could to avoid looking in your eyes. and so I was relieved when you offered to end it before the bridge. -- when you see me I have some idea what you see but not think when I see you I only think about your body when you see me you think of me as an object when I see you that is all I can do when you see me you don't see me when I see you I see the filter of my gender first It dominates my vision when you see me I hope you see me and not the filter that dominates all you see when I see you I do not see what you see when you see me, I don't want you to see me. you don't notice beauty the way I do. my effort to be beautiful. but not how you define it. I want to be as beautiful as I can be. the way you run fast and want to be the fastest. I want to be beautiful for no reason other than this is the filter that dominates my vision when I see you I don't see that when you see me, you don't know anything about me when I see you only my interests matter when you see me I hope you won't speak to me or look at me as if my interests don't matter. I always think about everyone's interests. making them happy. to please. my interest is pleasing. I look beautiful because it is pleasing to see beauty I cannot see that you don't see what I do. but I am tormented by beauty. it is all I know. everything I do I want to do while being beautiful. and all the women want to be the queen of beautiful. --