In Honer Of My Brother Anthony!

My brother Anthony, suffered from depression. Anthony had a very hard time dealing with his depression! On February 11, 2019, my family experienced the most horrific heartache one can ever imagine; Anthony took his own life. We had to do the unthinkable and put my 16 year old brother to rest! Dear Anthony, my baby brother:
It has been too long that you finally got it your way 
you left us here, without a farewell 
leaving behind just your smell. 
Everyone tells me to respect your decision and understand that you fulfilled your mission 
but they don't understand my pain  
they don't know how it feels to be stuck under the rain. 
I wish I could hold you and tell you that I love you  
I wish I could understand 
I wish I was there to hold your hand; maybe I could have changed your mind! 
The night that you decided to leave and to no longer believe,  
I know you weren't afraid anymore of who would be waiting for you at the door.
I finally saw your last letter 
I was hoping it would make me feel better instead I miss you more and your last words made me swore. It made me wish you weren't gone 
because I don't know for how long I can stay strong.  
It's been too long since I lost you brother, 
it's been too long since I lost my other.  I hope you will no longer suffer 
I will be waiting for you in my dreams 
to re-live all those beautiful memories. Until we meet again. 
I will love you always, Peter